If God is all you have, then you have all you need. I don’t know anything that is truer than this right now.
I have found myself, once again, feeling alone and this has led me to seek God now more than ever. Finding myself alone doesn’t mean that my loving family has deserted me, it doesn’t mean my friends are suddenly out of the picture. It’s just that I’ve found myself seeking more than just company, more than just a few minutes of pleasure from the things of the world, more than just being happy only for a moment.
Don’t get me wrong, my family means the world to me, and I love my friends with all my heart. But there are just some things that people cannot give you. There are things that you will never find in a job, a partner, money or success. A lot of the things we’re constantly seeking in life – love, joy, wholeness, purpose, and others can only be found in God.
This morning I woke up with a very heavy heart. This is not because something bad happened, it’s just that I had this really deep feeling of loneliness. My family lives in another province and I can’t just see them as often as I would like to. I woke up feeling sad and I just needed a hug, someone to hold me, just to hear the words “I love you”. I know that I can always hear those words over the phone, whether it’s from my parents, siblings or friends. But there’s just something special about hearing them in person, and being held so tightly that you actually feel the love from the other person.
Since I couldn’t have any of that, with my heavy heart, I knelt down and prayed. There’s just something magical about communicating with God. It’s a connection that I will never be able to explain, it’s one that I will cherish forever. The prayer I said this morning was a very simple one. I said: “God, please hold me. Hold me. I cannot do this without You.” I said those lines repeatedly and I felt His love. I felt His peace. I felt His presence in my bedroom. I wept as I repeated those lines and I really felt God’s warm and loving embrace. Oh, what joy it is to know that I have a heavenly Father who loves me unconditionally. A Father I can call on in good and bad times, a Father who guides and protects me, a Father who is there when I’m feeling lonely and have nowhere else to go, or anyone else to talk to. A Father who accepts me just as I am, an imperfect being.
I will forever be grateful for my relationship with God. He has (and still is) transformed me into a better person every single day. I can see such a difference in my life and it’s all because of you, God. My hope is to love you, and others, just as you have loved me.
I’ll end this with a few lines from one of my favourite songs by Hillsong. The song Hosanna is such a powerful prayer.
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.
I hope you feel the powerful, healing love of God. May His love transform your life just as it has transformed mine.